So... I went to a doctor's appointment, and we talked. (Therapist- quite the point of that appoinment hm?) We mostly talked about his fish he recently got, which were in his office. They were guppies, and I think he had one or two tanks and about four adults and five babies that were just born. And I mentioned that guppies were one of my favorite fish, and that I'd like to get some for Christmas or my birthday, (which is coming up in about 4 months... Time flies by soo fast..) and mostly about fish I had in the past. Well, then he (while listening to me blab about fish, which is probably not too interesting anyway...) he goes over to this counter, which I couldn't see what he was getting. I hear a lot of clanking and weird sounds, like gravel moving around or being poured into something. Then he just pulls out this tank, with plants, gravel, even a filter, and he's all- "Here, have this. 8D"
And I'm thinking "WTF, don't do this for me! DX I'll just feel guilty for getting all this stuff!" But I just smile and say thank you, like a polite person should. I figure what he's going to do next... And he does. He gets one of the bowls, which had about three or four guppies in it, and about 5 babies as well, and catches two guppies, (boy and girl, one was coloful with a big tail, and the other was dull-colored and looks like a minnow, quite easy to tell the difference...) and he puts them into a plastic cup with a lid and a small hole in the top to exchange air. (by now I'm like *headdesk* PLEASE, you're killing me here, too much stuff given to me! *guilt* What if I accidentally kill the fish or something?! You're too nice!!! DX)

I don't know why, but I often feel guilty when I'm given something, like I don't deserve it, or I'll feel guilty because I feel like I've done something wrong if I don't absolutely LOVE what they've given to me 100%. I know they have good intentions and would most likely understand if I havn't fallen in love with what they've given me, but I really don't feel like I deserve so many good things.